im here in ortigas for work again and konti na lang i'm off again. the good thing about this is i can blog and then do school work at the same time para later eh i can go to the gym then do some errands pa. i haven't claimed yet my laundry at more than one week na siya dun. so parang if i will measure it, my undies and socks would last for more than three weeks before i run out of these stuff. parang ang konti. i hope i can go to the mall so i can get some pa. hirap mag isa sa buhay. walang kaagapay. lolz.

funny coz yesterday i took a nap, like 10 am. and i was in a sitting position. bigla ako nagising and i heard myself snore. YUCK. buti no one was there. nakakahiya. siguro sa sobrang pagod nung sunday kasi i went jogging after going to church. ang galing nga kasi in front of the UST church is the football field so double purpose for me.

usong uso ang mga indie films or short films. yesterday before going to class, nag indie film marathon ako. foreign nga lang. i don't have access to local ones eh. and very interesting how a 20 minute film can touch people's lives. i hope i can produce or create an indie film one day. yung walang script. para true to life talaga. not like the paranormal activity na napanuod ko last week which seemed fake. i have lots of ideas sinking in. maybe i have to study film making. haha ano ba talaga ang gusto mo sa buhay hijo?

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After all that's said and done...

You finally said: "Are you still mad at me?"

I said: " I'm not really mad at you, I just can't be."

You said: "Can we be friends again?"

I said: "Sure. "

Then you said: "I can feel our friendship will be better. I'm just not ready, yet."

~ F*KC! I hate myself... so much. For feeling this way towards you, for even fantasizing about that flirty "I'm just not ready, yet" line you threw at my face, for thinking that one day, you'll wake up and realize that the girl that you're looking for is me. I soo effin' hate myself for this, and yet, I don't understand why I keep on logging onto FB and hoping against all hope that you'd be online so we can talk.

I need a hug. *wipes tears*

Currently feeling: confused

i have to work today...and it sucks... i know...as a matter of fact, i slept in the car for me not to be late. and my neck hurts. but still, i was late. i didn't wake up when the phone alarmed. in short im just sooo sleepy. i badly need a decent sleep. i always complain but i always do it. who's to blame? nobody but me.

last night we went to guilly's island again. i didn't like the atmoshpere. i don't know...maybe it's the crowd. i didn't even stay for more than an hour. my eyes were hurting. the smoke continuously got in my eyes and the feeling sucks big time.

yesterday, i went to school a bit unprepared. but it was nice to kind of realize how successful the discussions were. the students' eyes were glued to me. whenever they needed to speak up, they spoke and express their views. nice one. i hope to maintain that kind of scenarios every meeting. most of the classes im attending this semester are about speech communication. and it's something i want to improve. i feel like i am a tv host whenever i am in the class. lolz.

we saw 2012 a couple of days ago. i thought i was watching the day after tomorrow. un pala, the director of the films is just one person. i don't wonder why there was the same touch. and for me i think the title of the movie should be "the modern day noah's ark" hah. but seriously we must act now to save the world we live in.

i like this shirt i am wearing. it's given by a friend. not really expensive ( i know how much it costs). what i like about it is that it doest show the bulge of the love handles, and it gives emphasis to the upper body muscles.

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"I'm gonna be ok..."

*wipes tears*

Currently listening to: Better in Time - Leona Lewis
Currently reading: Widmann's Clinical Interpretation of Laboratory Tests
Currently feeling: needing a hug

a sigh of relief to be in my bed at 830 pm. my body has been letting me feel that i need to rest. and it does not surprise me a bit because when i was at work this morning, i took a nap. when i woke up, my mouth was wide open. yucky! i remember when we went to bicol to build houses, we all slept with our respective mouths open because of too much exhaustion. i can tell i am definitely tired. i tried to work out this afternoon before going to class. the only thing i was able to do was jog. i decided to resume the weights on saturday.

the header says going big time. i really wanna do something big soon. everytime i see these people around me, i start teling myself that i need to begin something i am gonna do for the rest of my life. and it has to be both income generating and public service. i am thinking of something but a study has to be done to be able to fulfill it. it ain't that easy especially if it's something big.

tomorrow will be somewhat busy. i have work in the morning, then i have check up at my dentis after lunch. in the afternoon i will be at the PBA and at night i think we will be having a night out thing agian. so sleep has to commence now. but im afraid it wont be so soon because i'll have to prepare some school papers for saturday.

i thought my day was gonna be alright. it's the other way around. until now it lingers in my mind and i feel like cutting my wrist. er... those people's wrists. how can some people be so oppressive; unmindful of how other people would feel. it was such a big blow, and since i'm a worrier, i can't stop thinking of how to adjust with my finances. eh halos weekly ata for the last 4 weeks, i've been buying clothes. lol. whatever. life goes on, im lucky i still have two jobs, with sidelines on some occasions. I promise myself, if it's still gonna be like this in the next two years, i think i'll have to think again... in 4 years I'll be thirty. and it's kind of hard to get a new job in the PI when youre middle aged.

to relieve stress, i had dinner with friends (again?!?!) but made sure there's no rice intake. i only ate the shrimps and kare kare. which happens to be calorie-fic as well. oh noes. then as ron, pau, gary, carlo and wynnie were playing poker, i suddenly felt asleep. and thought of taking a nap. funny. it was a long sleep na pala. i wasn't even able to change clothes. and i was holding this tiny royce chocolate which luckily is still intact. and im gonna eat it later. royce apparently has been indulging me lately with its yummy-ness.

to start the day right, i want to thank Bro, up there,  for letting me go to work with a complete satisfying dose of sleep. :D it's been a while since i've had something like that. it's not everyday that you wake up in the morning with that eagerness to work. and today i feel that way- all psyched up. I hope my day will be productive- all done in Bro's name.

yesterday was fun. totally fun-filled day, bonding moments with friends at andy's birthday at outback in G4. awesome food i must say. all worth it. though i missed the wedding rehearsal for maan's big day, coz i was too tired maybe from playing at timezone,  got drowsy when we went home.

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Oof. Sembreak is over. Another sem ready to be killed awaits me. Arrr.

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