I:

1. have a new fone!
2. think i'm having sleep paralysis
3. saw g toengi look bitchy
4. just have to submit my resume to a company so i can work already
5. feel that not having subjects this term makes me feel stupid
6. have been smoking again
7. am a spaniard? nah....
8. almost done with compiling erotic songs
9. learned new things
10. am against bush after watching fahrenheit 9/11
11. will be watching shark tale later
12. want to clean my room
13. am sooooo lazy
14. was freaked-out because someone had a "seizure"
15. have no money
16.want to have long hair
17. am a liar... hahaha joke

Currently listening to: Canto de Orfeo - Catwalk
Currently feeling: quixotic

Just finished watching SKYCAPTAIN... a while ago. My riend and i was laughing because we decided to give it a rating as an ADULT CARTOON. (not because of torrid kissing and the like) because it looked like animation wherein adults would enjoy and be awed by its effects, just like how kids enjoy xmen,voltes v, power rangers)

one thing that struck me, Gwyneth was a photographer, hence the movie showed some dilemmas of the "snap-shot dude"
1. never go to a fight unarmed (don't go without enough films)
2. you'd die for a story
3. deciding whether the subject is what you really want
4. treating your camera/slr more important than your life;
and most of all...
5. removing the lens cover. hahaha

if you're a fan of 3d graphics, you could give this a try.
(problem was, maybe i was just so amused that i never saw a climax in the story...or maybe there wasn't.)

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since i've experienced something with a succubus,(i really don't know it this was true)i'm deciding to make novel for that.

it was a very freaky feeling when a friend of mine said that i was being "visited" by certain spirits/ghosts/things. maybe this was the consequence for looking at the future... tsk tsk tsk

those eyes were full of anger, hatred and despair,
yet they were like the eyes of the devil.
those eyes that i believed were full of love,
yet they became eyes that were not fair.

walked passed those doors, a raging bull,
left the room, a weeping soul.
violence was the heart's one groove...
stunned my mind, i could not move.

fearing the sorrow, grieving with pity
singing my requiem, looking and thinking...
with tears falling to the ground,
the night does not seem to end...
with those eyes still roaming around.


/*thanks to anne donato for a certain line i cant get right,
marvs semilla for laughing, and the people who were
initially involved including the person who had those eyes*/

i feel so very helpless seeing a friend almost being harmed...
so this piece is for you...

Currently listening to: Claudine - Maksim
Currently feeling: depressed

i dont often get mad
i smile even when things go bad
they say that i dont take things seriously
they say that i take things too lightly
no one understood what i really meant
smiling everytime, not showing regret
under the skin... was already dread

im not odd, im not strange
i dont poke myself with some syringe
im not unusual, and not peculiar
i dont swallow swords, i dont eat fire
im not bizarre, im not weird
i dont live the indifference that you've percieved

why do they they always believe what they see
i feel pity, i feel angry
not all who smile show what they really mean
not all who smile show what inside feels
why wouldn't they understand
i'm still human, i can feel sorrow
only deeper... when things don't go for the better

im not odd, im not strange
i dont poke myself with some syringe
im not unusual, and not peculiar
i dont swallow swords, i dont eat fire
im not bizarre, im not weird
i dont live the indifference that you've percieved

stay away, keep away
you think that you've been of help
i don't need too perfect persons
who will change my life for the worse
i only ask all of you
make me feel understood
show them not all things are what they see
have the feeling that something can happen
for at least one second

/*some people just can't understand others...
i think i violated the grammar rules and some
spelling while doing this,maybe im just too
occupied */

this is one of the most common questions involving lovelife..
"sa tingin mo ba masama ako sa kanya?" (am i bad for him/her?)

then i would probably answer:

"wag mong sabihin na masama ka o ano, siguro may mali lang pero hindi masama... sobra naman kung sabihin mong masama ka" (dont say that you're bad or something, maybe something's wrong but it's wrong to say you're bad... it feels exaggerated)

then there's the ATLAS syndrome... the "pasan ko ang daigidig" (carrying the weight of the world in my shoulders)

then i would probably say:

"mas marami pang taong namomroblema sa mundo, kaya wag mong isipin na parang guguho na buhay mo" (there are more people suffering greater than you, so don't think that you're world is collapsing)

a squire once told a great warrior
"They said we would not hold for the night... they say that it is hopeless.."

and the great warrior daid
"That is a good sword you're holding... whatever happens, there is always hope"

-LOTR The Two Towers


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how i love listening to classical music... it makes me feel serene... but yesterday, he sang old filipino rock songs even novelty ones... we were laughing so hard we ended 02:30... (thinking that we started 23:30)

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ever watched "The Land Before Time"?
how would you react if i told you that i know someone who never knew about this movie... it's like missing half of your childhood dude! hahahaha

Currently listening to: Pachelbel - Canon in D (Harp and Flute)

LOCAL version
Son: "Mom! pano kayo niligawan ni dad?"

Mom: "Ligaw? walang ligaw ligaw! ang alam kong ligaw eh ung taong nawawala at hindi alam kung saan pupunta..."
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FOREIGN
son: "mom, how did dad courted you?"

mom: "court? there was no court involved... i was never sued by your father...."

hahaha ano to satirical joke?
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like the debate last night.. "uso pa ba ang ligawan?" (is courting still used in relationships?)

i dont know what to answer here.. i just laughed and laughed when i thought of this alleged conversation of a soon-to-be-parent. (someone i know) hahaha

sumasabay sa tunog ng gitara
sumasama sa galaw ng hangin
sumasabay sa agos ng ilog
sumasayaw sa himig ng musika.
hindi maikumpara sa kahit saan
kung ano man ang aking nararamdaman
walang makaintindi, walang makasakay
lahat ay nakatulala sa kanyang taglay

habang kumakanta ang mundo
ay tumutuloy ang pag-ikot ng buhay
habang tumutunog ang hawak kong gitara
di pa tapos ang awit ng puso ko para sa'yo

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hahaha ang landi! so much for being logical today. a lot of people have been infused by negative energies lately. from my "exorcist" to a love-strucked, to a confused, to a back-stabbing metrosexual, mad foreigners, furious dormers... whoo! so much negativity, i dont know if im happy or sad... it's like "too good/bad to be true"

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oi hindi ako in-love ah! the poem was just spur of the moment... i think it's for someone i know who's currently in the brink of insanity.. or bipolar disorder (geeky!)

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the dragon said "there are no right or wrong answers, only logical ones"

a big wooden house
built with full of lights that shine
and i'm the owner

my very first haiku!

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it's been 2... years since i have been alone in this old house. i don't know if i'm to be scared or what. a lot of people have been asking me "aren't you afraid?" what am i supposed to be afraid of? my dead grandfather? muggers? arsonists? i would be afraid if i left my key somewhere else... some also asked "aren't you feeling lonely?" a lot of people know me as a very sociable person that even if you leave me in the trashcan, the flies would be the one having the hard time adopting to me not me to them. SO thinking that being alone in this big old house would make me insane. But i always say, i have the wall to talk to... the stairs and the candles to play with (haha freaky!) joke lang... but i also enjoy moments of solitude. it makes me feel very peaceful.. unlike what i'm acting at school and somewhere else. i appreciate this house for giving me a lot of space when i need it.

but with the succubi lurking somewhere? it's very creepy but fun... at least that's out of the ordinary hehehehe

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i think there are some wrong grammar in the entry... bare with me? (hahaha) sorry i was thinking about something else hahahaha (sounds bad...)

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a friend told me that excessive Vitamin C's would turn your soon to be babies abnormal... eeeew! luckily i'm not marrying someone but money hahaha VITAMIN C?! here i come! hahaha

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"Wanna die?"
- My Sassy Girl

Currently listening to: Strange Woman - Jacqui Dankworth

i was having fun at my friend's dorm when i decided to go home. i have to watch Y SPEAK! it's about ghosts and stuff.

a doctor told everyone that it could just be hallucination because being a man of science "to see is to believe"... then asked if she is believing in GOD... then she promptly answered "YES! i do" very ironic isn't it? She speaks highly of science and criticizes those who believe in supernatural things... then she defends the fact the she believes in GOD because of cultural means. VERY HYPOCRITICAL (if there's such a word)

they said the 92% of the world's population believes in a supreme being in one form or another...

so? are you part of the 92%? or are you deviant?

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when i was going home, i saw the usual street children selling sampaguita. it struck me that the news tell us of corrupt officials and people. That in this democratic world, every is free to do anything. To think that there are suoer duper rich persons... and they still wanted to be richer not thinking that there are extremely poor people around the streets. (i think this part doesnt have any sense)

when i was talking to a friend about forms of government, she mentioned she liked a parliament. and we both agreed the democracy sucks because it is only abused by the people. When i said i'd like a communist one... she said "walang yayaman sa pilipinas" (no one will become rich in the philippines)

after seeing the street children... i would say "ok na yun! at least walang mahirap" (it's ok since no one will also become poor) very idealistic noh? hahaha

and a prof told me "they can do anything they want, as long as the filipinos eat three times a day" (well, not exaggerating to the point that the president can go owning the coffers of central bank or something)

Currently listening to: Croatian Rhapsody - Maksim
Currently feeling: freaky and nationalistic